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What Never Poured

 Sometimes I think about those clouds: how they drift, soft and deceptive, pretending to be cotton balls while carrying entire oceans inside them. They look serene from below, even gentle, though their silence is nothing but a storm waiting to come out.

 Perhaps that’s what makes it so tragic? Their quiet obedience to a sky that only loves them when they’re harmless. They swallow what the world won’t see, rehearsing to look gentle and to stay soft, masking ache as grace, until they find a sky willing to let them break.

They are the lucky ones as their sky listens. So, when they collapse, it isn’t destruction, it’s devotion. The rain falls as a confession, honest and unashamed, and the sky? Well, it receives it without flinching.

For a while, there’s no sorrow, no anger in the undoing, only relief. The clouds pour until they are empty, and the world below calls it beautiful, not realising the years of pain it holds.

     

But what about the ones that never get to rain?

 

The ones that stay heavy, afraid to disturb perfect skies. They forget what it felt like to drift freely, mistaking restraint for strength. The world calls their storm selfish, teaches them that silence is grace, that hidden sorrow is the softer kind.

And hence, they learn. They learn to hold it all in, to turn their ache into wordless defiance. They tell themselves they look better this way, calm and composed. Becoming what the world wants them to be. They fold all their deluge neatly, tucking away every flicker of thunder until they even forget the sound of it. And society? Well, it loves them for that, calling it maturity, patience and self-control.

And maybe that’s the cruellest part? That they come to believe it too. That to release would be a weakness. That to finally rain would make them unlovable. In the end, they keep circling the same sky, burdened with the ache of everything they were never allowed to feel. It’s strange how easily society rewrites pain into discipline. How suffering, wrapped as strength, becomes something we’re expected to admire. But even the most obedient clouds long for release.

 

I wonder if they ever think about that day - the day they’ll finally let go, even if it’s not pretty, even if it drenches everything below.

 

Do they dream of a sky that would let them pour without an apology?

Do they dream of being loved not for their calm, but for their chaos?

Do they ever imagine a place that won’t demand their composure?

Or maybe they just carry on, with practised stillness, pretending it’s fine because the world still wants its illusion of sunlight.

   


How does it feel to hold so much that it becomes unbearable, yet stay whole? Perhaps the thunder is their only language of resistance, and the lightning? A fleeting confession, a tremor of truth before silence devours it again.

We call them beautiful when they darken, don’t we? When the air turns tender, when the sky forgets its own colour, and the world sighs at the melancholy it never had to carry. That’s the quiet irony of it: beauty born from someone else’s breaking. Ever wondered how easily we worship the horizon’s tears as art, admiring from a safe distance, what would it do if it ever came too close?

 

I wish they find a sky that would hold them: a place that won’t demand them to shine.

And maybe one day.

Maybe one day, they’ll meet the sky that was always meant for them. The one that doesn’t ask for sunlight or peace, just presence. And when they finally pour, it won’t be sorrow anymore; It’ll be recognition. Like the sky and the rain, they remembered they were never meant to be apart.

The sky will open its arms as if it had been waiting all along.

And then?

Then the clouds will no longer be heavy, and the sky will no longer be empty. Together, they’ll paint something that feels like peace, that shade between blue and grey where everything is understood without being said. And maybe that’s what peace really is: finding the place where even your quiet collapse is welcomed.

And the world?

Well, the world, which once watched it struggle, that worshipped brightness and feared the rain’s honesty, will hush in awe. It will stand in some faraway corner, unable to look away, as the clouds and the sky finally find each other.

For once, it won’t demand. It will simply watch as they create the kind of story that makes even the wind hold its breath, the kind that feels like a beginning disguised as an ending.


 

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