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NIGHTS

 


Head down, eyes closed trying to give in to sleep

Interrupted or Kept up by an echo of thoughts

Matters approved with the heart’s seal

Secrets that my mind conceals

The good, the bad, the ugly all at once appeal

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Nights can be challenging. How one tries to let it all go and put his mind to rest but is

 ambushed by a stream of thoughts. It turns into speculation and introspection. 

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         Things which tear me apart, things which put me back together

Things that hurt, things that heal

Things which make me numb, things that make me feel

Things which I regret saying, things which were left unsaid

Moments that are easily forgotten, moments that are hard to let go

People who come by rarely, Emotions you recognize from the get go

Feelings, decisions, emotions, faces and myself

You are in an infinite room, four walls but no ceiling

I think now you get the feeling

Night is war, Night is peace !

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Night reminds you of the things which matter, the things which affect you and the

 things which you thought didn’t matter but still affected you.

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     Does it hurt when those people you call yours change faces ?
      Does it hurt to know it’s your life, but you are not in control ?
Impossible to ignore, impossible to interpret
Sleep caresses a troubled you
It takes over the night and guides you to a dark abyss
To protect you from the never ending free fall of thoughts,
sleep is sheer bliss it is until it ends
Night is question, night is answer, it all depends!

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All the thoughts when processed and taken care of yield realizations, opinions and conceptions. They may be true or you may have taken it to be some bad version of the thing it was intended to be. When your head hurts with all these feelings, SLEEP becomes your guardian angel.
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 Night is where dreams fade into reality
A dream is like a game
Where the night simulates your fantasies
A space ride is what the beginning entails
But in the end it’s memory is further curtailed
You are up against your mind in a conflict
And every trick it portrays
You think you yearn for the next day?
A day accounts for a night,
but a night accounts for days
A dream can end in less than an eye’s blink
You are more nocturnal than you think!

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The last phase is when you step into the other side, a DREAM. You playing a game as the first person. No matter what you do in that world, you end up forgetting it. But still you never think of ending a dream, until it’s over. And you return to your reality only to let go of it again. Days are overrated, nights are what we need.
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THEELUSIVEEXPRESSIONIST (magan.gagandeep@gmail.com) 

Chief Editor - 
YASHVARDHAN (ykatiyar0902@gmail.com)
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